Life is looking up for me today : ) The call back interview went well, they offered me the job. Which is quite good considering i have $188 US dollars left. I spend 2000 in less than 3 weeks. Im officially starting the new job on monday. My base salary starts out at $15 bucks an hour which isn't so bad considering its an internship. Most people do these for free. I even have an official sounding title ...My name tag reads: Megan Kaputa, Meadville, Executive VIP Club Agent! pretty sweet huh? I basically wine and dine the VVIP customers. They have their own lounge area and I run it. Solely on my own....eeeks. Im in charge of all their needs and basically serving them canapes and cocktails until their hearts are content! From what I understand Each week/day I'll get an up to date list of the VIP customers with their likes and dislikes along with a small dossier about them. With the list and my amazing hospitality skills I am to predict their every need. ahhhh for me this is very exciting!

Well this is the first time Ive blogged and yoda wasnt near monitoring me. So the juice and gossip can come out. Things are much better than I predicted them to be. I was sure I talked myself into dumping his ass when I got here. My feelings were all over the place. It took me a total of one day to change my mind. We are so different and it hurts our relationship but we continue to wade through them. He is getting more and more into his spirituality and honestly it freaks me out a allot. He hates organized religion especially Catholicism. This is a big thing for us, the funny thing is I never thought of religion as something that would damage my relationship. I don't believe myself to be strict or close minded. Until he starts talking and criticising my religion then all the sudden I find myself fighting about parts of my religion I hardly even think about, and fighting as if they mean life or death to me.

We have both changed so much its like learning to love someone all over again, but with the added bonus of already loving them as another identity. I know I love him no doubt about it. Its crazy if someone would have told me that studying abroad over 2 years ago would still be affecting my life this much I would have laughed in their faces. After all I was only "here for a good time not a long time." It is even more mind boggling to think that I contemplate engagement. If he had the money to buy a ring I think I would already be engaged. I know I would say Yes atleast. We talk about it fairly alot. He always mentions how he knows I want a ring and he wants to do it right, but he doesnt want to wait. My dad promised me my moms engagement ring which the diamond fell out of years ago and I mentioned to Yods that I was going to ask for it at Christmas time. As a present my dad could get a new diamond put in it. His reply was, "no wait till I come to the states." Sure We fight and we argue but at the end of every argument I can still see myself spending the rest of my life with him and that scares the shit out of me. One positive thing is he has residency now so that makes things much more normal for us, not that we are under any normal terms at all. Well I guess Im happy and he is happy so we deff arnt rushing into anything crazy. We are just trying to find ways to make it work, ways to be with each other.

I leave for home in may and he is coming back to PA in June : ) he has to wait till his school semester is over. He is taking a short course in hospitality it runs feb-may and he makes me feel so guilty about going to a four year school. He is so excited for just 4 months of school its rejuvenating for me. When I go back I am going to do my best to be happy that I get the opportunity to get my BA.

ok Ive just wrote the longest blog ever. Sad thing is Ive got tons more to say!

Just a few prayers for tonight

-my lovely girls and boys in VA that they are being careful and taking the time to enjoy themselves

-to my sisters that they all see each other and stay strong for one another especially tomorrow, that they show my dad love and give him kisses during this emotional day/week

-and that I can open my heart to gods will and trust in him that me and yoda will follow our hearts and he will lead us to many years of happiness