Do you ever catch up?

I really honestly am starting to believe that I will never catch up in life. I just think im getting ahead. Ive got a good job. My rent is paid. After a ten week interview I get the CA position. Life is sweet. My plane ticket is bought im going to see my boyfriend. Then bam life hits me. HARD. In the form of a nice little letter saying ....dear megan, please pay 6, 800 because we fucked up and its due in 15 days. WTF!!!! Just because they find out my dad sold his business I have to pay for it. How is that fair. PHEAA sucks ass. Good thing is I applied for a forberance on my dads parent plus loan he took out for NZ. And I might be able to get out of paying the 6,800. I cant wait till school is over. I want to start my life and get all these damn loans and bills paid off. It weights me down.

This all brings me to the subject of Austraila next year. What should I do? Go for the year putting off growing up? How am I to go and still not get even further behind? I guess I wont be doing as much traveling as I had wanted. But im still excited/nervous.

I cant wait to see if jaroslav and sara really go. It looks like jaroslav is deffinately down. If we are still together im sure he will be going. Im not sure about sara yet. Who knows life takes all of us in different paths.

Ok im going to try to go tanning and maybe hit the gym before work.

28 more days. God i need the easy silence he creates for me

bye